I heard this song on MTV the other day (well, about 30 seconds of it... quite a bit for MTV these days!)... and it made me think of Bear. Primarily the chorus... But it's just so true. Our song used to the All-American Rejects' "It Ends Tonight," because it's what I was listening to one of the first times we hung out and he started singing along to all the words and I was totally shocked. He doesn't strike me as the type to listen to emo. But oh, does he.
Anyway, we've been talking and joking for a while that we need a new song, because "It Ends Tonight" is a total downer. I mean, c'mon, the opening lines are "your subtleties, they strangle me, I can't explain myself at all. And all the wants, and all the needs, all I don't want to need at all." Not cheery. Although even typing it, I can hear Bear camping up Tyson's voice in my head.
In any case, a couple nights ago when Bear was over at my house - after an adventure through flooded streets and 20 miles round trip to find a Blockbuster (god I hate living in a small town) - I played him this song. I was bouncing around my room, and he heard the chorus, and just goes "awww!" and gives me a giant, well, bear-hug. Heh.
So here, enjoy.
Yeah, my life would suck without him.
Starring:
- Sasha Sappho
- I am passionate. A fierce liberal. I throw myself wholly into everything I do and hope I don't hit the ground too hard if I fall. I am forever curious and have an insatiable appetite for knowledge and learning. I hold my friends closer to my heart than anything in this world and once you're in, I would do anything for you. I pride myself on where I came from and what I am making of myself. What that is, exactly, evolves daily. And I wouldn't have it any other way. If you've got fantastic stories to tell me, books I should read, etc etc, e-mail me at sashasappho at gmail dot com. The stories, rants, and content herein may likely be explicit - so if you're under 18 (21 in some places) or find such things objectionable, find a different site to explore.
Featuring...
A constantly changing cast of the people in my life who tend to appear in this blog.
The Optimist - A friend of several friends who I was introduced to in the beginning of summer 2009, with major consequences. He pretty effectively swept me off my feet, and continues to astound me regularly. I don't get to see him as often as I would like, but that makes the time we do spend together that much more enjoyable. Stay tuned. He does read this blog.
Friend - I've known him since we were children, and as of the past few years, we've developed a particularly strong friendship (yes, sometimes there are benefits included). He's a fellow intellectual and non-monogamist, and we both tend to enjoy bouncing hypothetical relationship or sexual theories off one another. He's actually one of my most consistent partners, and there's a lot of love there. He does read this blog. (Never comments, though, you ass!)
The Pilot - A mutual friend of mine and Friend's from childhood. We've recently reconnected in the past year or so, and Friend and I spent my senior year spring break with him. He's an incredible friend, another fellow intellectual, and while a little newer to the non-monogamy thing, seems eager to make it work. He doesn't seem to mind my neuroses in talking to him on a daily basis. To quote him, he's weird... but in a totally awesome way. He reads this blog.
Bear - my best male friend at college. We're polar opposites in many ways, but that's part of why we're so good together. We joked about being friends with sexual tension for three years before we finally had sex. There was surprisingly little ensuing awkwardness. He now refers to me solely as "love." I love him dearly, and I don't know what I'd do without him. He also reads this blog.
Non-boyfriend - An old friend who I casually dated for a summer after my First Love. There were some complications, but overall the relationship was wonderful. He was kind, intelligent, we got along famously, and he's still rather dear to me. Things ended because I was leaving, but the split was certainly amicable. We are still on friendly terms and see one another, socially, regularly when we're both in town. Reads this blog. (Or at least he used to.)
P - Probably my closest friend since starting high school. We've dated, fallen in love with each other, and fought, and for a good long time I firmly believed he was my soulmate. I don't believe that anymore, but I do still care about him. He doesn't know about this blog, although I've contemplated telling him many times.
Jacob - We had an ongoing, on-again, off-again romance for several years. I have recently ended things because he needed me to be something I couldn't be. But I hold no ill feelings toward him and wish him well. He reads this blog.
The Optimist - A friend of several friends who I was introduced to in the beginning of summer 2009, with major consequences. He pretty effectively swept me off my feet, and continues to astound me regularly. I don't get to see him as often as I would like, but that makes the time we do spend together that much more enjoyable. Stay tuned. He does read this blog.
The Scientist - One of my oldest and most consistent friends. We met in high school and kept in regular contact through college. We've gone through so incredibly much that it's at once shocking and brilliant that we are still such good friends. Sometimes we sleep together, but mostly we just care very deeply for each other. He reads this blog.
Friend - I've known him since we were children, and as of the past few years, we've developed a particularly strong friendship (yes, sometimes there are benefits included). He's a fellow intellectual and non-monogamist, and we both tend to enjoy bouncing hypothetical relationship or sexual theories off one another. He's actually one of my most consistent partners, and there's a lot of love there. He does read this blog. (Never comments, though, you ass!)
The Pilot - A mutual friend of mine and Friend's from childhood. We've recently reconnected in the past year or so, and Friend and I spent my senior year spring break with him. He's an incredible friend, another fellow intellectual, and while a little newer to the non-monogamy thing, seems eager to make it work. He doesn't seem to mind my neuroses in talking to him on a daily basis. To quote him, he's weird... but in a totally awesome way. He reads this blog.
Edward - Spent a decade in my life before he removed himself by saying terrible, abusive and destructive things to me in the spring of 2009. He still tries to call me and contact me and has resorted to stalking me to try to get "answers" he feels I deprived him of. I do not speak to him or have any contact with him.
Bear - my best male friend at college. We're polar opposites in many ways, but that's part of why we're so good together. We joked about being friends with sexual tension for three years before we finally had sex. There was surprisingly little ensuing awkwardness. He now refers to me solely as "love." I love him dearly, and I don't know what I'd do without him. He also reads this blog.
Non-boyfriend - An old friend who I casually dated for a summer after my First Love. There were some complications, but overall the relationship was wonderful. He was kind, intelligent, we got along famously, and he's still rather dear to me. Things ended because I was leaving, but the split was certainly amicable. We are still on friendly terms and see one another, socially, regularly when we're both in town. Reads this blog. (Or at least he used to.)
P - Probably my closest friend since starting high school. We've dated, fallen in love with each other, and fought, and for a good long time I firmly believed he was my soulmate. I don't believe that anymore, but I do still care about him. He doesn't know about this blog, although I've contemplated telling him many times.
Jacob - We had an ongoing, on-again, off-again romance for several years. I have recently ended things because he needed me to be something I couldn't be. But I hold no ill feelings toward him and wish him well. He reads this blog.
Roomie - She and I met one summer after we both found the same house to live in on Craigslist. She's spunky, hilarious, adorable and brilliant. I love her. We're planning on moving in to our own place together sometime in the near future. I don't think she knows about this blog.
Essin' Em - We've known each other for well over 10 years, and she has in many ways been my inspiration. In being out and proud, in affirming queerness, in sex blogging, and in being yourself. I owe her much, and the least I can do is send some more traffic her way. Go check out her blog, you won't regret it. I promise. Obviously, she knows about this blog and my queerness and my kinkyness. We've played together once, and still maintain a strong friendship. Miss you, lady!
Kirsten - my second-oldest cousin, who is brilliant and inspiring and beautiful. She was murdered in New Orleans on Sept. 27, 2008. She was 25 and had accomplished more than most people hope to in a lifetime. I am still reeling. If you'd like more information about her, send me an email at sashasappho at gmail dot com and I will link you to her memorial page.
Essin' Em - We've known each other for well over 10 years, and she has in many ways been my inspiration. In being out and proud, in affirming queerness, in sex blogging, and in being yourself. I owe her much, and the least I can do is send some more traffic her way. Go check out her blog, you won't regret it. I promise. Obviously, she knows about this blog and my queerness and my kinkyness. We've played together once, and still maintain a strong friendship. Miss you, lady!
Kirsten - my second-oldest cousin, who is brilliant and inspiring and beautiful. She was murdered in New Orleans on Sept. 27, 2008. She was 25 and had accomplished more than most people hope to in a lifetime. I am still reeling. If you'd like more information about her, send me an email at sashasappho at gmail dot com and I will link you to her memorial page.
I get off on...
- Mental Masturbation
- Militant Ginger
- Sexuality Happens
- Northern Lights and Sleepless Nights
- Heartbreak Nymphomania
- Osbasso
- La Petit Mort
- Indiscretion
- Facts and Friction
- This Could Be Dangerous...
- Jazz and Sex and Soup
- Welcome to Sageville
- Sugasm
- Sexual Adventurer
- Savage Love
- Confessions of a College Callgirl
- Post Secret
- Jay Brannan
Labels
- experiences
- HNT
- Spain
- thoughts
- relationships
- music
- friend
- nonboyfriend
- the pilot
- Edward
- kissing
- Essin Em
- BDSM
- erotica
- The Scientist
- non-monogamy
- The Optimist
- friends
- interwebs
- orgasm
- review
- Ex
- Jacob
- Roland Hulme
- fantasy
- readers
- sex toys
- Bear
- P
- toybox
- Twilight
- holiday
- spring break
- text
- vacation
- Crush
- FwB
- Kirsten
- babeland
- column
- humor
- queer
- random
- romance
- the boy
- the viking
- threesome
- video
- C
- Roomie
- The Texan
- VibeReview
- biting
- love
- roommates
- summer
- the band
- Amalthea
- NYC
- New Year's
- Satin
- Thunder
- assault
- college
- exhibitionism
- flashback
- kink
- nudity
- oral sex
- Facts and Friction
- G
- Ireland
- Jay Brannan
- Merlin
- advice
- camp counselor
- coming out
- cuddling
- family
- favorites
- gay marriage
- girls
- life
- pessimism
- questions
- rants
- sex party
- sugasm
- the frat boys
- theory
- vibrators
- Champage and Benzedrine
- Denmark
- Disney
- Fat Controller
- Fukuoku
- GGG
- Kiss-In
- Larry Craig
- Leonardo DiCaprio
- Marianne
- Mister Mann
- Obama
- Osbasso
- PDA
- Pride
- Robert Pattinson
- Seattle
- Sex and the City
- T
- The Sexist
- Titanic
- Wilhelmina Wang
- Wilhemina Wang
- academic
- activism
- awards
- bondage
- book
- career
- cohabitation
- control
- curves
- dancing
- dirty sanchez
- dirty talk
- door jam cuffs
- feminism
- films
- home
- humping
- identity
- introduction
- job
- past
- politics
- porn
- rape
- rape culture
- safer sex
- self-confidence
- shoes
- softerworld
- spanking
- summary
- support
- thanksgiving
- tween
- updates
2 comments:
Big improvement. Actually, I wonder why anyone listens to downer songs. I guess I haven't had enough tragedy in my life to appreciate them.
Lucky Merlin! :) I adore downer songs and upper songs alike. I am generally not so much in love with the Kelly C. - but... this song and 2 others are making me wonder why. Yay Bear!
Teehee and the word verification is pogwar! Children of the 80's forever!
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