tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7288035126856205400.post3499793151322767692..comments2023-08-04T06:28:03.551-06:00Comments on (un)Scripted Sexuality: My apologiesSasha Sapphohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05400657273516424091noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7288035126856205400.post-54128331665969989812008-10-08T13:17:00.000-06:002008-10-08T13:17:00.000-06:00It's ok to be however you are, anytime. If you fee...It's ok to be however you are, anytime. If you feel numb, it's ok to be numb. I know you know that in your head, I hope you feel it in your heart. One way I've found to get control over your grief is to just be one with it and let it run it's course without apology.<BR/><BR/>If you don't want to write, I hope you won't force yourself. Grief sucks, death sucks worse. Take whatever time and space you need. <BR/><BR/>It may help to keep that reunion in the future in your mind as a lifeline, a place you'll get to eventually. Maybe it will help you to process things and to take advantage of this opportunity that she surely would have wanted you to enjoy. I know you went into this planning to do so. It's beautiful that your family is coming together to support each other, however far away they may be reaching to do so. <BR/><BR/>I adore you, I hurt for you, I miss you, but I'm happy to not have you while you do what your ailing heart requires. *huge virtual hug*Amaltheahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10454407895127778441noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7288035126856205400.post-14903093490659512262008-10-08T03:31:00.000-06:002008-10-08T03:31:00.000-06:00I can only imagine what you must be going through....I can only imagine what you must be going through. Just remember that it is OK to enjoy yourself, it is OK to laugh. I know how it is; you catch yourself laughing and immediately feel guilt because you feel you really shouldn't be. This is all the tougher because you haven't been able to get together with your family and work this through but it will get better with time.Fat Controllerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09041653310357187641noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7288035126856205400.post-20777670244880807182008-10-07T22:11:00.000-06:002008-10-07T22:11:00.000-06:00Write what you feel, even if it's feelings of lone...Write what you feel, even if it's feelings of loneliness and frustration.<BR/><BR/>You did that rather well.<BR/><BR/>Whether your current situation is right for you is something only you can tell. I wouldn't give up on it easily, though.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7288035126856205400.post-72891702606942169482008-10-07T17:11:00.000-06:002008-10-07T17:11:00.000-06:00'But I solidified my position as the weirdly quiet...'But I solidified my position as the weirdly quiet loner girl in this program. Which is ironic, because any of you who know me in person know that while I'm weird, quiet and loner are not words generally used to describe me. If anything, I'm usually overly chatty and I hate being alone. I'm hyper-social with my friends. But not here. I don't belong here. I don't want to be here right now.'<BR/><BR/>This is uncomfortably similar to how I felt for almost all of last year, my first year of university. Things have got a bit better now, but I still feel a different person (socially) at uni than I do at home. I don't like it (to, obviously, say the least), but it's gradually changing, and I hope your situation does too.<BR/><BR/>At least you have OceanLab. Breaking Ties is a very melancholic song (which is fitting here) but Justine Suissa's voice is beautiful.<BR/><BR/>I hope things get better xJakehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12169469327479936450noreply@blogger.com